My Eating Disorder Weight Loss

Sunday, August 15, 2010

No matter how many times i write it next to my name, THIN spells FAT




S is for suicide in my own flesh

C is for carving my own bone dress

A is for anger bottled up inside

R is for reason which leaves with the tide

E is for eating and flushing it down

D is for dreading the part where i drown.


Don't worry - i'm not suicidal. I've been there before, and i'm miles away from being that bad. I'm just going with the poetical flow. Bit melodramatic, i know, but i can't be long today. The facts are as follows:

- Putting on lbs blows

- I have put on lbs

- I will put on at least another lb tomorrow (because of a meal)

- This is unavoidable unless i purge

- Purging will be difficult

- Ergo i'm freaking out and want to hide in a hole.


I will report back from the safety of my bunker when the weight has left again. I will strive to do everything i can in my power to get it off asap, but i will not feel right again until i am back to 8st 12 (124lbs). This may mean a few days, however i could dip in and out depending on my mood. It's just a heads up that things might be a bit fucked up for me in the next few days. :(


Love, hugs and lightness,

Poppy xox

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