Heya.
Well, from my title you can see what my headline news will be. I'm sorry blogs have been irregular, but i've been falling asleep at 1-2pm then waking up at 2-3am in the morning! It has caused havoc with my eating. As in, i can't quite go get myself a salad at 3am can i?! the girls would think im nuts!
But as a side point, i did well yesterday and on the day my family came down (Sat). On sat, the only thing i has was the beanie burger that i had to eat at the restaurant, and it was one of the lowest cal things on the menu. It was 560kcals i think. I also swam for an hour again.
The other day was tougher because i ate some chocolate, but i purged all of it up. Then i walked without stopping from one end of my room to another for 35 minutes. It supposedly burnt 130kcals. I went to sleep quite early on after that, and had nothing else.
Now onto today! I woke up some point during the night feeling REALLY thirsty but i didnt have anything. This happens often enough but i never have anything because i weigh myself in the morning and don't want water weight to affect it. Usually there are not adverse affects, im guessing today was the exception!
I had a drink, then went to get in the shower, wobbling once before i got in. I didnt consider it until suddenly i felt sick, and couldn't breathe properly. I pushed open the shower door hoping it would hope, but then the room sort of span. I blacked out, but i remember the bang of me falling to the shower floor. On opening my eyes, i felt extremely sick and had ringing in my ears. I tried to pull myself out of the shower so i could get some water. But i found i couldn't get up. I pulled myself to the edge of the shower and onto the floor. I pulled myself up to the basin, where i blaked out again. I woke up to see the scales, toilet brush and cloth scattered about, but i dont remember dragging them down. After taking a few deep breaths, i knew it was important for me to get to my water bottle by my bed. I tried to stand up and got as far as closing the bathroom door before i fainted for the third and final time. At last, when i woke i reached out for my bottle and chugged the lot down. I was shaking SOOOOOOO bad, and so, despite the fact i knew it was all fat, i ate a boost bar. This was mostly because i knew it would level out my low blood sugars and stop me from shaking. But don't worry, later i purged it.
I am probably not going to be able to go to the leisure centre today, because its bank holiday. However, i will get to bed early and be up early to go for a swim tomorrow. I think i might fast, or eat about 300kcals tomorrow. On the plus side, my weight has gone right down. Oh yeah! Today is weigh in day! i can't believe i forgot! Well, since the last time i weighed in, the result today is:
WEIGHT GAINED / LOST: LOST 5lbs
Not bad! Still got to improve though. Hopefully with more exercise, i can push it further.
I haven't done much else after my 'episode'. I watched sense and sensibility (BBC new version - its excellent!), now im about to do some of my novel writing. Its getting on well! After that, i might go back to bed.
I am not going to post up my calories, because most of what i have consumed, i have also thrown up over thr hours. It would be silly for me to try and write it up when i have no idea of the amounts of in/out myself!
Big hugs and thanks to Alissia and TCStar for commenting! Welcome back Star! I thought i'd lost you in all the moving about, im so chuffed you're still checking in! Keep at it - you are so right to say its a long term thing. Small achievements are so hard to see as anything spectacular when you are aiming for the big goal - its seems a long way away! Well done for everything you have achieved Star - don't despair, and if you ever need any extra encouragement or someone to talk to just email me (lifeisafreefallplunge@hotmail.co.uk)
Alissia, i will let you know when im going to start a weeks fast - i'll hopefully post a blog on here to let everyone know about a week in advance. Also, an UBER WELL DONE for all those laps! that's amazing, im so jealous of you doing all those, you must have just been able to feel the weight coming off you! how long did it take you to do the 176 laps?
Finally, quick TQ for heather, who left a lovely little message for me on the site. thanks and please keep your comments coming - i really do listen, promise!
Right, im off to work. Love to you all and i'll be back at 12 tomorrow!
XO Poppy OX
